Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Back in the light

Last Sunday, my wife and I attended an evening mass at St. Elizabeth Ann Seaton parish in Omaha. It's a youth group mass catering (mostly) to teenagers and their families, but due to our having missed the vigil on Saturday night (a childhood friend's wedding), we needed to find a Sunday night mass to fulfill our Sabbath obligation. A quick search on archomaha.org and we were on our way...

Look, I'm not a music aficionado. I listen to talk radio. So when the eight member/four piece Christian rock band fired up for the first time, I felt unmoved. Neither did the architecture of St. Elizabeth inspire me. The church was built like many others in the late 70s and early 80s. If you're a Catholic who appreciates the grand old cathedrals and basilicas which dazzle the senses with classic, skyward-pointing architecture, you know what I'm talking about.

Still, it was the mass, and I'm always desirous of the scripture readings and, especially, our Lord in the Eucharist. I also enjoyed seeing my old boss at OPD, Deacon Marty Crowley. And the young and energetic Fr. Jeff Lorig's homily was superb.

Fast-forward to the end of mass. The recessional song -the final selection played as the priest, deacon and acolytes depart the sanctuary- was a piece by a guy named Charlie Peacock. Until Sunday, I'd never heard of the man. Here's an excerpt of his song:
I keep trying to find a life
On my own, apart from you
I am the king of excuses
I've got one for every selfish thing I do

Whats going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That Im still a man in need of a Savior

(chorus)
I wanna be in the light
As you are in the light
I wanna shine like the stars in the heavens
Oh, Lord be my light and be my salvation
Cause all I want is to be in the light
All I want is to be in the light

The disease of self runs through my blood
It's a cancer fatal to my soul
Every attempt on my behalf has failed
To bring this sickness under control

(chorus, etc.)
That song resonated deep within me and provoked me to attend daily mass the following day, Monday, and confess a sin I had been sitting on awhile (I was thinking God might forget about it?).

Thus, I learned a valuable lesson last weekend from a church which didn't "look" like God's House (at least to my skewed perspective) and from a band playing their hearts out whom, in doing so, captured mine.

I thank the Lord for the little nudges of love we're blessed with from time to time. They often come from the least predictable of sources.

2 comments:

Athanasius contra mundum said...

I REALLY like the DC Talk version of that song.

Karen E. said...

Lovely.

We were blessed to have Fr. Lorig at our parish for a time. We miss him!